A H H H H H H H H H!!!
how cum my font is pink?!
A H H H H H H H H H!!!
*strangling/hitting/stabbing computer... V E R Y H A R D*

hehe, i'm back for my second post of the day! gonna share something with ya... it a very wonderful old love song which i heard just yesterday, so went to the internet and searched for it. it took me quite an effort... tink i dunno how to search dat y it took me about an hour, lol. but its worth it! hopefully it can work though... hee =)

Because Of You
If ever you wondered
If you touched my soul
Yes you do
Since I met you I'm not the same
You bring to everything I do
Just the way you say hello
With one touch I can't let go
Never thought I'd fall in love with you

Because of you my life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world just because of you

Sometimes I get lonely
And all I gotta do is think of you
You captured something inside of me
You make all of my dreams come true
It's not enough that you love me for me
You reached inside and touched me internally
I Love You best explains how I feel for you

Because of you my life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world just because of you

The magic in your eyes
True love I can't deny
When you hold me
I just lose control
I want you to know
That I'm never letting go
You mean so much to me
I want the world to see
It's because of you

Because of you my life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world just because of you
My life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world just because of you
Because of you...

i prefer old love songs which were composed in the past... it's like you could smile and cry at the same time while listening to the lyrics :) compared to today's hits... they seem a lot more meaningful and romantic. now tends to be filled with barbaric words such as f*ck, s*x, d*ck and bla bla bla.
... lucky thing i know some past love hits... thank to my mum :)... she everytime sings me those to sleep when i was small... lol... goodnite guys... ciao... ... ... ...

hullo! i'm so happy! i think the entrance exam was relatively easy... cross my fingers, i really hope to pass =). i made a couple of new friends too, lol... although my tagalog was like crap, they still understood me, haha. there was also this guy who sat beside me... and half way during the exam... he asked what is "i love you" in chinese? i was like (-_-") huh? now? we were doing the math section. lol, but i still answered him in whispers, i wouldn't want to get caught for pete's sake, lol. after the exam, we kinda get along and talked a bit before my father fetched me and we said our goodbyes.
now i'm doing my facial clay mask... looked so terrible... haha...
i'm also having second thoughts about dyeing my hair... long black hair actually doesn't look dat bad right? the most i'll juz highlight it... or extensions? lol. bye bye!

hello! i'm back! sorry for not blogging yesterday, was kinda busy... had to finish watching three video cds as i need to return them to the shop a.s.a.p... i already paid a couple of fines due to late returns, waha, it's just so me =P. btw, i know how to burn a cd!!! isn't that terrific?! after reading the manual for almost half an hour... i could do it! hehehe, call me genius? lol, jkjk. any normal person would get it right in 15 minutes and i needed 30 *grins* i burnt pirates of the carribean, johnny depp is just so cute! i couldn't resist him, lol, although he is very old... but i gotta admit... he is really cute! anyway, yesterday i was alone for the whole day... i was very scared. i admit, i hate being alone and being in the dark, i prayed that my aunt would come home soon... cuz in the philippines, the clouds start to turn dark at 1700, it early huh? unlike singapore... it starts at 1900+... i kinda miss the life there *haiz* no use complaining, right? but it good thing, she came back at about 1745 *phew*. we had a simple dinner in a small air-con room... ...

hehe... we've got fish and lamb... is my rice little? haha...

my aunt making strange faces... lol.
today, i went to watch the polar express! the movie was just... its a bomb! i liked it very much! gived it a 4/5! i even cried during the show... i know its animated and all... but it kinda shows the spirit of christmas and all those stuff. the songs were also good, i loved the movie very very much... i wouldn't mind watching it again... it was so meaningful. btw, i sat on a love seat, first time i sat on it, lol. we went to a bazaar after the show, and i saw fishes! i saw parrot fishes too! its pink, purple and green! i never saw anything like it! lol, i was like "wah wah wah" all the way, lol, the guppies looked so different from the ones in singapore, haha. i wanted to buy but... my aunt said a big fat N O *grumbles* i told her i know how to take care of it... she doesn't believe me, grrrr. i know okay? my friend taught me before *sticks out tongue* anyway, i rented some vcds again! i just finished watching garfield! it was so fat and cuddly and cute... lol... i think if i had a cat i would name it garfield... but my cat must be orange, hehehe. btw, i also received a birthday card from my mum all the way from seattle, washington. thanks mum =) i love you.

the shows i rented today

birthday card. [sorry it not that clear, hee]

tomorrow, i'll be having my university of santo tomas entrance test! wish me luck! ciao!

yoo hoo! i got my driving permit! whopee! well... it didn't come by actually that easily. i had to wait in a stuffy and cramp land transportation authority... the fan wasn't facing at me and i'm too short to adjust it =( one of the reasons that i wanna be tall, hehe. i waited for about an hour before my permit was done... they were so slow! they even got my name spelt wrongly... they spelt it kinberly instead of kimberly! @$^%#%$... but i actually can't take my next lesson yet as i haven't paid the lesson fee... H E E H E E. all my friends know that i pay things at a much later date... always have my class treasurer constantly nagging at me, wahaha.

my permit!!! ...btw, the photo isn't me... its 2 phat! lol... k la k la, its me la. and i not fat hor! L O L

nuttin to do... while waiting for driver to bring me out... hee, sorry wor...

hehe, i've recovered peeps! ... after drinking a couple mugs of black icky yucky bitter medicine... i should be up and about by now, lol.
did nothing much these past few days... never really went out as i was sick with fever... which got my aunt constantly nagging at me...
"look at you! so thin and frail... ask you eat more don't listen... see you like everytime sick. now i look at you shivering as if its winter outside. better eat more next time, more fat would keep you warm." L O L
blog... there are moments when i wish i could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away, but i have the feeling that if i did, the joy would be gone as well... :)

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes...

i look and feel so pathetic right now. its so hot now and i'm wearing pyjamas as if it 15 degress celsius and below. dun talk about it, i'm having a bloody fever... again. the last time i had it was two months! grrrrrr!
can't blog anymore... need rest... tomorrow i still got driving lesson at 0800... now already 2232... haiz... wonder how am i gonna get up =(

... so sooorry for not blogging... ya peeps know why? well... it because of this lovely, cute... bloody internet! it always doesn't work when i want it to! @%#$@#! *all smiles again* anyway, here goes...
friday- i went to watch a concert! with my aunt and her friend, achi lonlon. its a couple of teenage babes and hunks singing... lol... they were so good! especially sarah geronimo, she was so good! she could reach notes that are so high... and the songs are so meaningful. it of course about love, lol, filipinos are very sentimental. somewhat good and somewhat bad i suppose. for the first time... i really listened to the lyrics she sang. it really felt good... it was so meaningful... its as if i was the gurl in the song. lol, strange but true.
the concert ended at about 0000 (-_-"). i reached home, plopped down to bed at once. btw, the tickets are cheap... 450 pesos... equivalent to S$15++. and the seats are somewhat the middle class. hehe, if i hav a companion, i would ask him to accompany me to every movie and concert, lol! i love movies too! don't really know how to judge it... every movie i saw is nice, haha. silly me.

tickets for the show

so many ppl were there. we had to reach 2hrs before show! grrr!
saturday- early in the morning, i was woken up by my ama. a couple of monks were coming to bless our house. i had to dress up nicely well and everything before 0900. they arrived on time, and i was the hostess for the meantime... as my grandmother was out for a short while. played the piano to entertain them a minute or two, lol. after that, we went to this vegetarian restaurant and eat. their culinary arts were exemplerary good. come, let me show you...

it two bowl of rice overturned on two swans, so simple but nice!
today- taught my little sis to bake cookies, she loves to bake. taught her how to do the dough and stuffs. and the cookie turned out quite alright... i suppose... although the texture ain't that good. lol. next week i promised a banana cake lesson for her... tell ya guys secret... actually i never did it before, gonna try and error it with her, lol. good thing she doesn't live with me, or else her nose would bleed due to much heatiness in her body... like me, waha... by eating too much these sugary stuff, haha.
went to price mart supermarket... hehe, yup... supermarket again! we saw lots of stuffs... that were so cheap! my grandma bought lots of things... as if there is gonna be a war soon...lol... *rolls eyes* for me... i boughta bottle of tequila rose, heard that it is good, ya guys should try it. abit of strawberry flavour if i not worng... could not take a pic of it as my aunt hid it don't know where. i guess i was naughty thay why she did dat... haha. maybe cuz i drank half of the bailey's after buying it for a week only. yup, she kept that too! #&$%$%! lol.

cookie me and step sis baked, lol, told ya the texture was *ahem*

our little emperor... in a pushcart

when i have a house, i would buy a pasta maker like this, lol.

bo liao me. blame that bloody internet for not working. if work, i wun scare ya peeps wif my visual anymore, lol.

it was so boooring, i stayed at home the whole day! the internet was broken in the afternoon... no good shows on cable... could you guys imagine how rotted i was? lol. pieces of my flesh is dropping... one by one... stop being so disgusting.
anyway later i would going out myself... alone... without a driver... i don't believe i would get kidnapped so easily... in a jeep... can't believe they are so protective. wanna share something with you peeps, somebody sent me something. ciao!

The Mayonnaise Jar and Coffee
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes"
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life The golf balls are the important things -- your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions -- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
"The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else -- the small stuff," If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you."
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18 holes. There will always be time to clean the house, and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand,"
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked," he said. "It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a cup of coffee with a friend."

nice huh? hee, found it so meaningful.

... it is so cold now... it woke me up... plus the rains pattering on our rooftop, its making a hell lot of noise. it should be about 23.5 celsius right now.
hehe, guess what i doing now? sweeping the floor and listening to the radio at the same time, lol.
yesterday i went to university of santo tomas to take my application for my entrance exam on november 28. do ya know its the oldest school in the philippines? yup, it started on 1611 till now. wow, how old is that i wonder... anyway, not really excited about the school... the legal management course is not that good compared to san beda. however, the population of chinese there is one of the most... and my grandma is making sure that i go in to schools just like that. lol, she once said... if i ever married a non-chinese man, she wouldn't give me a single penny on her will! is my grandma cool or what? lol... its like those movies here, where rich chinese families couldnt't bear their daughters to be married off to filipinos. however such things happen in movies... in the end the daughter was not considered as one of them anymore. they practically disregarded her.
lol, i once had this childish thought if i married an indian... what would the colour of my baby like? coffee or milk? or milo? lol. whatever the colour, it would still be cute right? i heard that mixes are very lovely babies, haha.
yesterday i also rented some vcds... the cashier guy and assistant mistook me for a korean... is my dressing code that weird... i find it very simple... lol

i'm sorry blog... it turns out he reads after all...
money... money... money...
why am i always in the middle... i did something wrong... i must have...
i stepped over his head... i did not giv him respect... was dat wat i did? and how?
... i will... look for you and get the money back... if thats what you want...
if u were hurt... nobody would imagine how hard i went thru these past few weeks...
if your pride was hurt... mine was hurt by you...
respect? i don't know at all
money money money... i was so stupid for being too honest... till now... we have gone our sepearate ways... we still have to talk about it...

blog... i am sorry bout the earlier entry... i lied once again... but this time to myself ...frustrated that he got over me so fast... so jealous he could do it... and i could not. i was the pathetic one, still pinning for the hopeless hope that we would still be together... blog, i really juz miss those happy times... not him... in my 18 years of life... it was juz the happiest moments... so angry with myself for being pathetic... not being able to move on... juz becuz of one guy... whom i thought i never loved... lol... congrats kim, you juz made him hate you more...

visual candies
booo! today went on a christmas shopping spree, felt so good that christmas is coming! do you guys feel it too? lol.
woke up at 0630 to have breakfast at the manila pennisula. i ate waffles, yummy yum yum. i thought it was a big one... but it turned out to be small and only one (-_-") bummer, i was very disappointed, haha. of course, who wouldn't be?! it not that cheap and they gave me one measly waffle. hmph.
went to the department store and bought some stuffs for **** and i can't tell what is it, heehee, surprise guys *winks* if not it won't be fun anymore. shopped till around 1200+ then we went to market! market! a shopping mall with loads of stuff. i bought nine almost similar presents to some of my juniors in band [clarinet and oboe section] is that a lot? lol.
my christmas list is left with just four more guys... guess i will be buying something typical for them... well... i can't help it... presents quite limited... argh, i hate buying for males... lol...
some things i bought for myself


green racerback... is my taste awful? lol.


green and red. the colour of christmas. lol.

i woke up so late this morning! at 1000?! aww, come on... how can i wake up so late when i slept at 2300?! gawd...
yesterday i went bowling, hehe, had so much fun, kept on getting spare. but actually not from my own effort one loh, i think the flooring help me, waha. cuz usually mine went to the canal, it was different yesterday. both of us had a score of 236, don't we make a great team? haha
but... I BROKE MY NAIL! nooooo... i took so long to make it grow now it broken! nooooo! poor thing... [lol]
juz finished bathing, now in my bathrobe typing my blog. my dad later is coming down! hehe, i want to ask a laptop from him... as a birthday cum graduation present *giggles*

juz finished sweeping and mopping the room, hehe, know why? cuz maid juz got fired again by my grandma... it was done so badly that she had to do it herself so thatit could be made right.guess what i watched yesterday? yup, it the incredibles! haha, i love it a lot! would give it a four star *grins* disney movies never fail to go below four for me! all the characters so cute... especially dash... the way he runs is so adorable, felt like bringing him home, lol! anyway, i would really recommend that movie, it's so... hmm... superb! hahawe went to the supermarket to buy apple chips and a few tubs of ice cream. those who know me, they know i love to walk in the supermarket. sounds weird? would you be thinking typical girls like me prefered shops? haha, well yeah, actually both are on the same level. going to the supermarket doesn't bore me at all.later would be going out again... hee...

blast this internet, it worked at last after many attempts, thanks to my kuku, hehe.
went to the temple for a vegetarian lunch with my grandma, step-bro and of course me! i waited a while bef0re the prayer ended. i got a total surprise, guess what i saw? a siberian husky! a real one! it was so cool! the eyes looked so glassy, except for the pupil, which is black. hehe, i would love one for my dream home... with my hubby, my children [wait long la kim] waha
went to watsons to bought some stuffs... want to pamper myself... so can find a boyfriend fast! lol, j/k la... won't have one till i finish my law course.
concentrate. concentrate. concentrate.

hehe, i'm always addicted to johnsons brand. want to be a baby again. lol.

nivea. they are well known for their whitening effect here. but i dun really trust it. so i juz used the normal one.

freeman products! they prove to be the best for me! it a foot soak.

waha. another fantasy of mine. dun mind me. lol.

woke up early yetsreday to go to san beda college to settle my bills. i tell you, my 5000 pesos are totally spent on my exam fees... now i'm only left with 1500+ pesos. this is just sooo great (-_-")
reached home and engulfed myself in a book called "the mistress of spices" quite a nice novel, but had not managed to finish all despite within two hours. had my freeman avocado oatmeal facial mask. my, i felt so refreshed, skin feels softer, loving it to bits.
during 1500, all of us went to the hospital to have our ear, nose, throat checked. I was fine, left the place without a worry. what i need to be checked is my stomach... hmmm...
missed my 2030 show as we out for dinner at pizza hut, yummy, i love the stuffed crust. believe it ornot, its been ages since i ate pizza.
hehe, later havinf my beer treatment hair mask, tia!

heyheyhey... good morning! lol... tell you about yesterday... *ahem*
the wedding banquet was so grand!!! chalendiers hanging everywhere, violinists, singers, 1000+ people attending? know why are there so many people? it because the bride was the daughter of the owner of OISHI... now how cool is that? bridesmaid were in blue and green gowns, they looked like sea to me, the color that is, lol. the flowergirls are sooo cute too! i was once a flowergirl but had no memory of it, lol, that was like almost 12 years ago?
anyway, what i did was to place namecards on tables, distribute some tube-like stuff, light candles on the presidential tables, etc. actually quite common sensical la, just have to do some leg work here and there. quite tirning of course... most of the time i was at the sofa playing puzzle bobble, lol.
as it was my first time, i got lincon [wedding planners' brother] to coach me. i think he was either too friendly or something else cuz he f*ckin hell placed his hand round my waist! sonofab*tch! hello! i juz knew you a few minutes ago and you treating it like a few years?! if your elder sis wouldn't have hired me i would have kicked your balls to pieces! assh*le! @$@#$#@%
later i will be having hair treatment, i will make it an every week thingy, to prepare it for bleaching during december, hehe.

yesterday i came back home at 0100+... so tired sia...
had a mini party with my aunt best bud, aunt fangmin, which luckily easy to get along with... if not it would be a very bored night for me. watched toy story on disney channel while waiting for the cook to get ready the stuffs, hehe, i know that there's a little child in me... well, maybe not little... a big one... lol. about 2000 we munched down some spagetthi *yummy* it's made with lots of olive oil, onion, button mushrooms and prawns. believe me, it tastes great! after that i had some tacos to chomp on, very westernized right? *giggles* went upstairs to watch some telly again, the room was so cold *brrr* can't imagine how could they survive that. gossiped a bit with my aunt and siobe [little sis] about popstars and etc. haha, talk until 2330 still don't know. was so sleepy, aunt fangmin offered us some tidbits and wine to wake us up. there were five of us down there... me, kuku, aunt fangmin, siobe and weiwei. oh yeah, siobe and weiwei are aunt fangmin niece and nephew, weiwei has the same age as me and maybe i have the chance to study the same school as him [st benilde de la salle], lol. my kuku face was so red from the wine! lol... actually quite cute lar, haha. we sang a happy birthday song at 0000 to aunt fangmin... and after a few more cups of liquor, we were on our way home!
i still have work later at a wedding banquet at 1600 till 2200. gosh...

damn the bloody computer in mandaluyong, the internet is not working again! blast it! now at my dad's office in the province, laguna. juz arrived after a two hour drive... so tired... nabubuisit na ako sa traffic sa highway, naabot nang kalihating oras, thank god i arrived. found myself welcomed by a few dogs... a jack russel, a mixed breed brown dog?, a hotdog dog and two german sheperds locked up in a cage. what a happy family, lol.
yesterdy went to st. benilde de la salle college to take my application form, it was so troublesome. had to get so many documents *grrr* there was no end to this. the day before i went to san beda college, university of santo tomas and university of the asia and the pacific. i'm in a terrible rush right now.
maybe it was fate... that wanted to get me heartbroken... giving up o levels to return to philippines... i believe that god has a motive for making me act these way. yes, i wasn't one of the lucky ones who were able to take the cambridge exams, but i got applied to universities which wouldn't be able to be done if i were not in my country. *grins*

ouch. guess what, i juz waxed my armpits for the first time. ouch. ouch. ouch. my aunt told me it wasn't so pain the first time, she always lies to me about these stuff (-_-") *shakes head*.
i'm npt in singapore now taking o levels, had a change of plans and i'm back in philippines again. recently went to hong kong to have a short break. did not bought any clothes as all are winter stufff. only bought small clips to put on my hair, kinda cheap compared to singapore. the cardigans at mongkok are not pricey, colours are very sweet too.
i thought i would have all the freedom... in the end... i have none...
"u r the eldest, u have to take all respomsibilities! starting from thursday onwards, you help out at your father's office..." is this f*ckin shit?